I had big plans for this weekend. I was going to turn our back mudroom into something beautiful. On Friday, I outlined my basic plan. By the time I got home, the Husband was already out back, cleaning up our piles of paint cans and taking our tools back to the garage. As we talked, the project became bigger, more complicated. As we talked, I could see the mudroom taking shape, becoming polished, finding its place in our home.

Too bad just talking about what needs to be done doesn’t result in a finished project.

From there, frustration piled on frustration. The Restore didn’t have any of the cabinets we needed for our pantry, our trip to the hardware stores took forever, and I came home to what felt like hours and hours of sanding.

And not much else.

Our mudroom looks about the same as it did when we started. There’s a little more spackle and there’s the beginning of a beautiful floor. But right now, it’s standing in as a beautiful example of how frustrating renovating can be. It doesn’t always go smoothly. A couple hours doesn’t always lead to beautiful results.

I wish.

As I took my before pictures, I realized how ugly this space actually is. Does this happen to everyone? The more time I have lived with this space, the less and less terrible it seemed. But looking at it through the lens of my camera revealed the undeniable truth: this space isn’t just rough around the edges. It’s rough around the middle too.
I know what this space can be. But right now? It’s just a lean-to on the back of the house, the room through which we walk every day with our eyes closed. Despite a full day of trying to better it, it’s still the room through which we walk with our eyes closed, but now it’s also dusty, full of a fine layer of drywall dust. Quadrant by quadrant, section by section, we will make progress. 
For now, it’s hard to see.

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  1. Some things take so much work but I think you should hold on to hope! It will look SO amazing when it's done! Plus soemtimes the most time-consuming jobs are the ones that you are most proud of in the end.

  2. Gah. So frustrating! But keep fighting, it'll be so great when you're done!! I'm actually turning green over here because you have a mudroom. It's on my MUST-have list for our next house. I can't wait to see how it turns out! Hang in there.

  3. I do use the term 'mudroom' loosely… but I am grateful that we have a space to kick off our snowy boots and take off our coat before coming into the house! For a long while, we went in the front door and left this entrance for our tenants alone (except when we wanted to get to the back yard, which was every morning and every night for the pooch!) but I hated having our coats on the back of chairs and our shoes everywhere, not to mention the salt we would trek in. So, back entrance it is!

    Thanks Cindy!

  4. Thank you so much for this post! I've been an frustration rut lately in my own home project and your post really validated a lot of what I'm feeling. I really look forward to to your final product; keep up the good fight!!!!

  5. No kidding. Some projects just take a long time, especially when you only have a few hours a week to work on them. We have a "back hall" that serves the same function, and it's pretty awful.

  6. I know it is frustrating when you can't tackle them as you want but it will all come in time. Our place is at at standstill right now but I know we will get there…sometime soon. Just keep your eye on the prize.

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